Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Most people think that depression means that you're sad
Most people think that depression means that you're sad. They think that depression is just when you feel down.
Depression is darkness that creeps up on you and fills you. It drains your energy and it numbs your emotions. It takes everything from you and leaves you with nothing so all that you are is hollow and numb.
Depression isn't sadness. It's not anger. It's hopelessness so vast that you cannot imagine there being an end to it. It's the void that is the complete absence of hope.
Imagine waking up and there being no color.
Imagine going outside and there being no sun or wind.
Imagine eating a meal and tasting nothing.
Imagine being held and feeling completely alone at the same time.
When you're depressed you're not in a bad mood. When you're depressed you're numb, empty and hollow and it seems that nothing can change that. When you're depressed you can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely. When you're depressed there's simply no hope.
The trick is to dare to believe that one day there will be hope again and that you won't be numb, empty or hollow anymore. The trick is to know that you're strong enough to survive it. You don't need anyone to save you, no one can, you just need people around you that support you while you save yourself.
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